relapse

I'm 88 days sober today, which is BY FAR the longest I've ever been sober since the first time I tried to quit drinking a whopping three years ago. Three. Freaking. Years. Three years of messing up and repeating the same cycles over and over. That's how long it's taken me to get to this... Continue Reading →

sober relationships

Many aspects of my life used to suffer due to my concerning drinking, with relationships being at the top of the list. I think that alcohol played a huge role in my boyfriend and I's relationship not flourishing right away. We met four years ago and had an instant connection. But only two weeks after... Continue Reading →

sober self-care

During my drinking days, my definition of self-care was letting loose and getting wasted because I "deserved" it. If I got up and dragged myself to work, forced myself to go to the gym a couple days a week, ate decently healthy, and somehow made it to Friday, I thought that meant I had a... Continue Reading →

socializing sober

I think that my drinking was especially concerning in social settings because being out on the social scene is what gives me the most anxiety. I can easily sit in the comfort of my own home or socialize with close friends who I trust, but being surrounded by strangers or hanging out with people who... Continue Reading →

baby steps

I'm so thankful for all of the encouraging words and support I've gotten recently about my "transformation" Instagram post. That was a really hard story to share because I'm still pretty embarrassed about that night...and it wasn't even the final straw. Some people have responded, "Wow! That's a lot of progress to make in only... Continue Reading →

traveling ​boozeless

This past weekend, my boyfriend and I traveled to Atlanta to visit his family for his sister's birthday. I'm not used to taking weekend trips where alcohol isn't in the equation, so this was definitely a test for me in more ways than one. First of all, my boyfriend and I traveled separately. He was... Continue Reading →

30 days

I started this blog in 2016 with the hopes of never drinking again. I think I ended up making it to day 11 and convinced myself somehow that it'd be okay to have a beer or six in the comfort of my own home with some friends, and then the cycle of breaking my own... Continue Reading →

me + alcohol don’t mix

You've probably heard the argument that some people have an "addictive personality" and some don't. I wouldn't say that I have an addictive personality in general. I've experimented with drugs and never felt the urge to do them again. I don't smoke anything, and I HATE the way nicotine makes me feel. But when it comes... Continue Reading →

tired of being tired

What was my breaking point? My rock bottom? My final straw? Was it crashing my car? No. Going to jail? Nope. Being on probation? Definitely not. I drank more than I ever did while on probation...and I was underage. Going to the hospital due to a drunken head injury wasn't it either. And when I had plans... Continue Reading →

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